I have published my first book of photography.

The podcasts are moving along quite well. Two have been put on hiatus, two are regularly being published and two more are in the planning phases. Oddly enough the one with the most downloads consistently is one of the two on hiatus, guess we caught a bit of lightning with that ope.

Personally I am unmarried, again and steadily moving toward new frontiers with a person of great emotional interest to me. Teri and I get along like life long friends with little friction. Separating myself from my previous wife on paper is proving to me I can experience new frustrations on a daily basis and live to tell about it.

Spiritually I am not doing what I should where I should. I fear not long term problems but I am aware that making it more difficult for God to work in my life is not a positive situation.

Things with my sons are up and down as they moved into and through their teenage years at the same time I must understand that they are living through same. I find that I am becoming more retrospective then I would have thought capable of.

Christmas...

I know...Christmas...we haven't even celebrated Thanksgiving. I am not one of those people who can wait until the last minute to do anything. I have to plan and make lists, you know, the anal thing. Now that I have acquired a ready made family, I have been thinking about the upcoming holiday season and gift giving. I have never had children of my own so having two very special young men in my life is a treat. I have been racking my brain with the wee knowledge I have of their likes and dislikes to come up with the coolest present ever. I have ordered and received some things but am ever looking for just that thing that will make them glow and therefore me glow too. It's just too much fun. Thank you God for their presence in my life. And the man in my life...I would give him the moon if I knew how to wrap it (and thought that he would want it). I am ever thankful to God for putting him in my life. He is exactly what I have prayed for. Exactly.

I have also been thinking about Him a lot lately. God. How patient He is and how much I am trying that patience. How much He has given me and how little I give Him lately. I've been asked what I want for Christmas and can't think of a single material item that would put a glow in my life. What I really want is the glow that only God can give when you are serving Him and being close to Him. I really want to get close to Him again, like I was. I really want to get back in regular corporate worship. I miss it. So I guess that is what I want for Christmas. I want to corporately and publicly and regularly be in the Presence of God. I want to show Him how much I appreciate all the blessings that He has put in my life lately. I have never been happier in my whole life.

All that and a bag of chips...

I have been searching for that someone that would understand me (and even if he didn't understand, accept). Someone who would not get overwhelmed with the love that I wanted to pour out on him, or take advantage of it. I have wanted, all my life, to find someone that liked to do things....you know, go out and watch a movie, go to a play or concert, go explore that store that looks so interesting or just hang out on the couch and watch a movie or such. And finally, thank you God, I have that. I cannot find the words to express the joy that I now have in my life. Every little want, wish, hope and desire has been fulfilled and my cup runneth over.
I don't know what I have done to deserve all my prayers to be answered but I sure am glad I did it. Thank you Lord for your blessings in my life. I feel as if I have been completed. All those things that I wanted to share I now can. So my life is all that, and a bag of the bestest, tastiest (Spicy Nacho Doritos) chips that can be found.

My plethora of creative juices is starting to return to a more manageable level. At least one if not two of my podcasts will be going on hiatus. The third has kinda slowed and I really want to re-focus on it and keep it going.

This week I will be sitting down and pulling photos for two of the three photo book projects I have been invited to help with.

I just haven't been able to pull together enough time in one shot to sit and write anything yet but I haven't back burnered those ideas yet they are still kinda hangin in the forefront.

Lately my muse and I have engaged in alot of TV/movie watching and I feel that any amount of creativity I may have pales in comparison to others.

Looking for another church to attend. Visited our third in two months and were very nonplussed. Not really sure if out lack of engagement is ours or an urging by the Holy Spirit nor do we know if it was correct of us to leave PCOG, but we did and are trying to find other.

What's a con?

This past Saturday and Sunday I attended the Heroes Convention in Charlotte, NC. My two sons ages 12 and 14 and my best girl Friday (Teri) accompanied me on this comic book safari that comes but once a year.

The four of us had about as good a time as a group can that includes juveniles. We laughed, we cried we ate Bojangles...it all became a part of us.

Looking back I see that it was most definitely not the tangibles that made the occasion memorable it was very much the circumstances. This is the first out Teri has really had with Mike and Nick that allowed everyone to be themselves. She was slightly reserved about the reception she felt she might get from my sons seeing as I am in the process of ending a four year marriage/five year relationship. It was the first relationship since I had ended the one with their mother.

I felt confident that Mike and Nick would be comfortable with Teri but I can understand she was hoping for something more then just my word to assuage her concerns. I do believe she is well on the way to feeling that Mike and Nick like her for who she is and what she can bring to a relationship with them.

I thank the Lord for allowing me to foster and grow a relationship with Teri. She has allowed me the freedom to pull out of a depression that was many years in the making and at the time we started to get to know each other, had a seriously firm hold on my psyche. Our time and her manner have awakened a muse within me that I long thought had departed. Those who follow my other ventures will see that as a truth.

Thank you Teri Anne for your positive energy that allows me to create.

Father God, I know I do not deserve what you allow me to have. I know that there is no way that I will ever be able to return in like all that you have given me yet you continue to give more. You watch and wait as I stagger and fall off the path, knowing full well I think I know what is going on but don't You humbly wait for me to right myself and continue on mouthing that I want to be a better Christian and meaning most of the time. Lord please forgive me the times I don't do as I should...I will not stop trying. Amen.

My first

This is the first time in my life that I can honestly say that I am in love. I still don't think I know all that the word encompasses. I believe I know what it is, then a new day dawns, a new feeling emerges, and there I am, shaking my head...

This is the first time in my life that I start a new portion my life with high hopes. I have not had the greatest track record in the relationship category of life but I am so thankful to God and my love that I find myself in this place. I have searched my whole life for someone who would understand who and what I am and accept it unconditionally...love me unconditionally...accept my love in return unconditionally...

This is also the first time in my life that I will have to give up the reins to my independence. I have finally found someone that wants to take care of me...take care of me, what a wonderful concept. I have always been the caregiver in any relationship. Daughter, Christian, wife, friend...I have always been the one to shoulder the burden, look for the solution. This is going to be a learning experience. And a difficult one. Not that I am not looking forward to it...just gonna take some adjusting. Thankfully, I have found one of the most patient partners that God ever created. And I just want to add...GOOD JOB GOD!!! I marvel at the creation.

This is the first time in my life that I look forward to every day and what it may hold...

Post: The First

This is my new blog. Welcome.

I have had several over the years, not really sure why I guess they just all seemed like the thing to do at the time.

I have recently had a life altering experience that is slowly returning me to a much missed peace of mind I have not had in many, many years. The whys and wherefores will come out over time I'm sure.

I want to use this blog to share who and what I am and will become, The posts will encompass, at some point or another, most everything that I am. Christian, dad, hobbyist, partner, son, photographer...all of which I have recently decided that I am rededicating myself to be the best one I can be.

You're welcome to ride along if you like. If its not your cup of tea we'll both move along and journey to our next stop on separate paths.

Until my next snippet of life..enjoy yours.