Saturday, October 31, 2015

2015 290

Lotsa 'family' time but now back home with my baby able to relax.

Dinner with Mike was ok. Seemed shallow and very surface but I suppose it's a place to start.

2015 289

A full evening of emotion last night. The Pens won and then Ron and I hashed out what has been going on between us.

Got my check, today extra money in it too. Awww Yeahhhh!!!!!!


Thursday, October 29, 2015

2015 288

i have a friend who rants about a variety of things and often spins the rants in a way that implies that the people he is ranting against are not as intelligent as he is. but at least 30% of the time he uses then when he wants a than. the irony is delicious, but it's also frustrating that he rails on about these things and is oblivious to the fact that he is often the embodiment of what he is hacked off about. sigh. 


I woke up this morning to the above post by the 'friend' I referenced in my thoughts this past Monday. Ouch.


I think the thing that  bugs my most...well two things. One is the gravity of the passive/aggressiveness inherent in the words but also the possibility that I could be as big an ass as I feel he implies. Time for some self inspection.


Something else came to mind this morning. Last fall in conversation with another 'liberal' friend when I commented that I did not feel that marriage had anything to do with love or romance anymore he informed me he was insulted by my condescending tone. This makes me wonder if a liberal tact that I am not personally familiar with is to accuse those more conservative with said condescension when offer an opposing viewpoint.


ok, so i succumbed to the temptation to say a snarky thing about someone who means a great deal to me and it backfired. in an effort to smooth this over, i want to publicly apologize to Ed Moore. Ed is the first real friend i made when i started college and he looked after me during my formative undergraduate years, when i didn't know anything about anything. he did nothing to deserve being treated so shabbily and i want him to know that i am sorry. also, since i clearly have no idea about how to comport myself on the internet, i'm banishing myself from FB for the next few days until i can learn how to behave like a respectful human being.

Ron you and I are fortunate enough to have grown a friendship that can withstand most anything. I also should apologize for having posted things that lead you to feel towards me any way that made you feel uncomfortable towards me. In light of the past several days Teri Moore has brought some things to my attention that force me to evaluate how and it seems most importantly when I choose social media as a sounding board. You have brought more than a tear to my eye my friend and I want to cherish your friendship and not see it fall away as so many others have. We are still good and want to work to keep things that way.

if anyone is an ass it's me. i wrote what i wrote as a caricature of a variety of people, including you. it was snarky and stupid and unfair. the snarky and stupid part is clear, but let me explain what i mean by unfair. as you no doubt have noticed, millions of people post things on the internet every day. you are among those people, as am i. but unlike every one of those millions of other people, you are the only one that is a person that i spent a big chunk of my college years looking up to. and so without consciously trying, i guess i have held you to a different standard from everyone else. i know this is wrong. but it hurts my head when i see you writing stuff with bad grammar because i know that you're smarter than that and i want better for you than that. and it hurts my heart when i see you ranting about things in a way that makes it seem like you're really angry at the world, because i want better for you than that. it's a stupid way to look at the world, but i guess that when someone means as much to a person as you do to me, then our hearts get bigger than our brains and we do stupid things. and i really want you to know that you do mean a great deal to me Ed. you were my first real friend in college and the vast majority of the good memories i have from my first four years at Concord feature your own good self. and i know that this will probably mean very little, but i have spent the past 15 hours kicking myself for how shabbily i treated you. and, for what it's worth, i deleted the post. i can only apologize and hope that you'll forgive me, but i completely understand if you choose to defriend me and never want to talk to me again. i'm going to banish myself from FB for a week and if you're still on my list when i get back, then i guess i'll know that i haven't done something irreparable. in the meantime, i hope all is well with you in WV. i really mean that.

Thank you for your words Ron. All is well between us as far as I feel. In talking to my wife and through experience I seem to be succumbing to some blacker periods psychologically and emotionally and perhaps those times I should censure my thoughts that much more lest I say things I truly do not mean. I truly am sorry that I have made you feel these things and had no idea. Just for the record I may be frustrated quite often but I don't harbor I'll will towards the entire world just some aspects of it that perhaps I don't explain as well as I could or should. Be assured during you 'time off ' I will be wondering what my black belted, mathematically inclined follow frater has been up to.

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

2015 287

Still got a damn conversation on FB running through my head again this morning. Tough to let go when I feel someone treated me rather dickish out of the blue. I can't help but wonder where it came from as my inkling if that it's based on more than that single conversation.

Damn work numbs my brain due to its uninterestingness.

Wow absolutely no contact about BOOM! Addiction tonite from Chris, sigh.

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

2015 286

I am in mourning this morning. A long time friend has been shown to have walked a path that leaves him too far left of my path for me to desire any truly meaningful relationship. He has gone from one of us to one of them and so that bridge has been abandoned, not burned just left unused.

Monday, start of the week.

Watched two hours of Strictly Come Dancing and two hours of Dancing with the Stars, full slate of dance watching.


Monday, October 26, 2015

2015 285

Cool visit with oldest son for his birthday.

Cool dinner with youngest son and his girlfriend.

In general the kind of day I'd like to have more of.

Saturday, October 24, 2015

2015 284

Took a trip to a local ski resort to ride their ski lift for a fall foliage look see. It was cool because it was new but kinda lame otherwise.

Grabbed dinner at a new place which was pretty cool. Met a cousin I haven't seen in 30+ years so that was a highlight.

Chillin on the couch.

2015 283

Still continueing with the mental suckage.

Ruckus in the Cage Bluefield edition tickets are supposed to go on sale today, that's groovy.

Got tickets cageside. Off side from main door to the cage.


Friday, October 23, 2015

2015 282

My state of mind has not gotten any better. It's hard to explain other than it is anything but positive.

Recorded Dance Fevre and Star Wars: The New Era both tonite.


2015 281

Nick stopped by last night for a while. We made plans for he and Des to come over for dinner Sunday.


Thursday, October 22, 2015

2015 280

Comic book day.

Back to the Future Day, once in forever. Enjoy it while it's here.

Not in a good frame of mind today. Not sure why. It seems that way more often then not and I wish I knew why and could change it.

Chef Teri working hard to give us something different for dinner. Chicken catchatory(sp) and Parmesan polenta. Excellent dinner.


Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Monday, October 19, 2015

2015 278

Start of the work week after a more enjoyable weekend then we have over over the past two months or so.

Now to figure out how to tell my dad the every Saturday thing to take him to visit mom and hour and a half away needs to come to an end.

Deer meat pasta for dinner and Dancing with the Stars finish up this rather drab day.

2015 277

NFL Gameday, three NFL games, boneless wings, two podcasts recorded and lots of downtime. Yes.

Only bad part was our hour spent at the gym today because our trainer needed us to come in. That blows on a Sunday at 10a.


Saturday, October 17, 2015

2015 276

Went and supported my younger brother in something that was important to him. Regardless of what exactly it was glad I had the opportunity and took the time.

Took receipt of some deer meat, three different cuts.

Reading comics and watching the Pens. All is as it should be.

Marvel comics are just not like they used to be and are just not worth the effort.


2015 275

Friday, end of the work week.

Workout went well.


2015 274

Got my check today interesting to note I am now up to about 39k a year. I didn't realize that. I feel accomplished.

My baby left me a care package and I love her for it.

Oh and the Pens are 0-3 and suck it right now. Haven't lost 3 to open the season since 2005, Sid's first year.

Listening to a bunch of new podcasts I have found over the past couple months.


Thursday, October 15, 2015

2015 273

Finally recorded a Boom! Addiction last night, a fun time was had by all.

Quesadilla burgers for dinner I think my current favorite Moore Standard from the kitchen of Chef Teri.


2015 272

First day at work this week feels like a Monday, oh well.


Tuesday, October 13, 2015

2015 271

Decided to take the holiday today and mess with the myriad of things I always seem to want to do between time when I'm doing all the things I normally do.

Editing and posting of Thorcast was first and accomplished.

Caught up on DC's Green Lantern Corp from the New 52.

Trying to get back into the habit of watching NHL shows now that the season has begun.


2015 270

Alps, Rudy Maxa and Gameday Morning all while taking notes for two podcasts hopefully being recorded today.

Mighty Thorcast recorded and Star Wars: The New Era postponed.


Sunday, October 11, 2015

2015 269

Another Saturday I voluntarily took away from Chef Teri and I gave to another for 6-8 hours a pop.

Home to wings...shit no no one wants to sell any to us that are reasonable and any good so a backup restaurant that is not the best but always as good as we can get in the cultural/food desert we live in.

Time for bed and hopes of a better Saturday next time.

2015 268

Pens lost. Suck it!

Friday, not payday but end of a miserable work week none the less.

It seems so much easier for me to get into and stay in a negative frame of mind. I so don't want either to occur. Not sure what to do to get there.

There are flashes of happy but they are few and far between as most is just bullshit I would rather not deal with.


Friday, October 9, 2015

2015 267

I thinking I'm seeing a new job dawning here at work. The things I have been doing for the last fourteen years have pretty much been accomplished and that type of work will shift more into a 'maintenance mode' then anything else. Now I will be using the knowledge of the past to make the job and my products better. Not sure how I feel about it...it's happening none the less.

No work out today instead we went and ate pizza out. Probably not the best idea but fuck it.

Pens on gotta go.

Thursday, October 8, 2015

2015 266

Comic book day...and maybe a couple presents for Chef Teri if my LCS got the stuff in.

Workout was a lot harder today because I think we haven't been doing this particular one correctly.

Soup for dinner that is outstanding. Not sure if it has a name but damn!


Wednesday, October 7, 2015

2015 265

Computer program updates all proceeding smoothly.

I have searched for a way to accomplish a certain thing with the 911 maps for years. I found it today. I prefer to think it's because the data recently became available however if in reality it's because I had not found it that means my Google Fu is sub standard. I prefer to think the former rather then the later.

I'm excited about work today for a little while anyway and that hasn't happened for a very long time.

BOOM! Addiction was a big fat bust tonite. Dude wants to do podcasts but just doesn't seem to have the time.UGH!

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

2015 264

Work.

Work out.

Dancing with the Stars, working for Dance Fevre.

Sleep, getting ready for work.

Sunday, October 4, 2015

2015 263

While football is on catching up on all the misc things I try to keep up with each week. Mainly making a list and checking it twice.

DC catchup is the next reading assignment.

Strictly Come Dancing on tap for tonite.


2015 262

Blah blah blah.

We started our evening off with a stop at Lavash. Probably the best place Chef Teri and I have been too in longer then I can remember, maybe since Montgomery.

Then our first live MMA event, which left some to be desired as an experience but was cool enough that we want to do it again.

Friday, October 2, 2015

2015 261

Payday

Jack Reacher on the tube.

UFC 191 to finish the evening.

Thursday, October 1, 2015

2015 260

Blah work.

Workout blah.

Steelers on tonite.

Comic reading time.

New neighbors, decision pending.


2015 259

Comic book day but I have nothing at the shop this week.